today the Corolla VS the E240 Merc....

Well went out at Embargo with samuel, gerald, ryan and kwanyi, and after that went to geylang for supper.. haha well.. the action hasn't happened yet..

it was on the way home on PIE, after CJC where there are the series of bends, that i and KY jus sped thru the turns at 120km/h.. i was doing ok. the road was quite empty, until i looked back at the rear mirror.. wat a sight it was.. An E240 (ky) was swinging left and right on its back wheels and smoke was coming out from the back wheel. I savoured the sight for a while thru the rear mirror... if only i could take a pic of it.. i mean how often do u see a big E240 skid on the high way?

well apparantly he had contact with a lorry so he stopped at the road side and settle things..

and so i went home..

we were gonig around the bend at almost same speed? well..

looks like the corolla has won the day!

I have been getting alot of attention from many unconventional people.

A filipino tried picking me up today

A gay made friends with me

Another guy is tryin to make friends with me

Sorry man.. i'm straight. and i only accept offers from 1 person.. for now.. maybe for a long time..

i don't wan to be talking so much cok to the world, but i got so much steam in me, i need to find an outlet somewhere. The blog is the most harmless outlet.

i am wiser

"Wah.. how come u suddenly so wise.. give such good advises.. hha nxt time i must ask u for more advise man" - Some friend (Identity kept secret for his relationship's sake)

i've become wiser already.. i see life in a very different aspect already. I give advise to people the way i couldn't in the past. Well. Guess i've become a betta lover from now on..

The leave i took

I just finished my 1 week leave from work. Well. I don't think the way i spent it will be the ideal way that people will want to spend it. But for me, I needed that kind of break. I needed to do nothing this week. I needed to get my life back together.

Although i didn't spend my leave the way i planned to spend it, it was good. I got to spend some time with her and do somethings for her. I didn't get what i hope to achieve after this 1 week break. But i'm glad i spent it the way i did.

No regrets man =)

The biking incident

Man shit man. i almost knocked down a motorbike man! and at that crowded PIE, i doubt he won't be rolled over my me or someother guy man..

I was changing lanes and this stupid motorcyclist suddenly appeared from no where and came into the lane i was going into! Luckily for him and me, i was looking at the side mirror cos i was keeping an eye on a cab, and i quickly moved away.. that fucker.. really really idiotic man..

I hate these kind of bikers.. They don't treasure their lives.. I wan to tell these idiots out there that although they don't treasure their lives, i treasure my future man.. if i kill u cos of ur fault, i still lose my job and that sucks.. so all bikers out there please take MRT!!!

i've never felt like this in a very very long time.. it must have been since tamworth that i've felt this? Its the feeling of a burning desire to see somebody..

the last time i felt this desire was probably in Tamworth, where i was stuck there in Australia while Sarah is in Singapore. Man i missed her so so much then

And this time, I'm in Singapore, and so is she. But well. u know the diff from now and then. i hate to say it. But i am missing her so much tonight. Here i am at home, not wanting to do anything but see her right now, although i only saw her 4 hours ago. where i dropped her off at her house? But now I wan to talk thru the night with her. I can't now. I want to see her right now. Its beyond my control.

Call me crazy, i don't care. Call me stupid for feeling like this only now. I do feel stupid. I don't wan to feel this way as well. Cos it hurts inside. It really really hurts inside. This kind of feeling is a feeling of powerless, a feeling where u really want to do something, but somehow u don't have the power and control to fulfill it. I can't do anything about this feeling inside me.

I'm in love again.

I miss u dear.. and i love u so much..

i am like dead bored.. its a saturday night.. there is nothing on tv..there is only one thing i feeel like doing.. but i can't do it.. i do not have money.. i do not have any desire do do anything else.. haha sigh..

good night world.. gonna watch soccer later in this case..

my life is good now... but it'll be perfect if i had u in my life again..

The sky has lost its color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that’s how it feels to me
Whenever you're away

I crawl up in the corner
To watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time you’re coming back

I can’t take the distance
I can’t take the miles
I can’t take the time
Until I next see you smile
I can’t take the distance
And I’m not ashamed
That with every breath I take
I’m calling your name
But I can’t take the distance

I still believe my feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you’re close to me
But it ain’t close enough
Not nearly close enough

I can’t take the distance
I can’t take the miles
I can’t take the time
Until I next see you smile
I can’t take the distance
And I’m not ashamed
That with every breath I take
I’m calling your name

I’d brave fire and I’d brave rain
To be by your side
I’d do anything
I can’t take the distance

I will go the distance
I will go the miles
That’s how much you mean to me
I can’t take the distance
I can’t take these miles
I can’t take the time
Until I next see you smile
I can’t take the distance
And I’m not ashamed
That with every breath
I take I’m calling your name
I can’t take the distance

i hate my other family.
i hate them cos i hate sharing my father with them
i have so many nasty words i wan to say to them.
i want to curse and scold my other mom
i want to make her feel so horrible, and know that i never liked her my whole life
and that i know she is only nice recently cos i'm more successful than any of her kids.
i'm holding myself back only cos i need the car.
i'm materialistic so wat man.

i was travelling behind a super slow moving traffic police excorted convoy. how slow was slow? u know on an auto car it moves after u release the brake? the speed was like that.. i didn't even pressed the accelerator..

Thought of the day..

"I've found what's truly sacred in life's small things...Hopefully, the world can be changed through acts of kindness, acts of affection and love--the idea of doing normal, everyday things that actually have an effect down the line...Be kind. Because the opposite works as well. You can send your hatred to the future. And we all know the end result."

hmmmm i dunno what that really means? but i think it kinda summarises how i feel about what i've been doing for the past week or two.. haha well.. ..

"u wan to use the car? go ahead and use! don't spend ur money on this 30k car! from tuesday onwards, u can use all u want" -dad

"but u always talk cock one. U say this now, later u change liaoz." -me

"no la wont! from tuesday onwards, when i'm less busy u can use already" -dad

And so stupid me agreed, not buying the car and now, here i am again fighting over the fucking car again.. i hate people who go against wat they promise..


Oh and by the way, today i was almost summoned by police right smack at KAP.haha i was turning into KAP and i was kinda distracted, and so i went into the lane opposite to the flow of traffic. haha and it so happened that of all things, a car was there, and of all cars, a police car was there. If only i had such luck in other things.

THe police men inside immediately asked me to stop and they got me out of the car. yeah..

"did u know i can give u 12 demerit points and u are gone?" -him

"really? for not getting into and accident?" -me

"yeah." -him

"oh ok sorry." -me

and so it was settled he told me to go off and not given a summon. So i went to park my car at KAP, all pissed off with my luck, and just as i was about to walk up the ramp frm the carpark, i saw the same QX4300 police car right at the park entrance.. haha they *honk* at me and one of them approached me.. asked me for my name address and number..

"wat is this for?" -me

"don't worry. not booking u. jus giving u a warning and this goes into our records" -him

"can like that one ah." -me

"yes"-him

and my point here is, i did not get any letter frm him, and all i did was write my details on his stupid piece of paper. My question here is was wat the police men did legal on its own? was it right to get my details for this? and me not getting a "reciept" or anything? i mean couldn't he get it frm their little computer when he took my licence away at first? anyone out there who studies traffic law.. pls.. btw, the police car was a QX...

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

---

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

Just the other day, i think it was on friday, i was at Sambawang Airbase for attachment at the Training Squadrons. The people who made it thru BWC in pearce and get posted to heli wil continue training here..

We were talking to the trainees there and we asked about the breakup rate with the gfs here in singapore, while they are there.. It was quite encouraging. Mostly only 1 breakups and for this 115 BWC course, no one broke up over there.

Well. than we went on talking.

The officer trainee "As a pilot trainee, you won't get to spend much time in Singapore. U might suffer now, but when u come back u can enjoy ur life."

Ryan "So actually not many people break up anyway?"

The off trainee "Yeah. U do hear many things about gf breaking up with the trainees, but in actual fact, alot more people hold on to their relationship over there in Perth."

Me "Hmmm.. so wat the use of all these if i don't have a gf man.." ".. Ryan, actually if u ask me now, if i was allowed to have her back, at the price of my pilot job, i'll glady do that.."

Ryan "You're crazy man.. its only for this period of time that u will feel this way man.."


Yeah i agree with wat he said. Its most likely only for this period of time that i'll feeel like this. But guess it'll take a hell lot of time and pain to get over this stage.

"hey u look like a security guard!"

think my uniform looks like one as well.. the white stripes.. Although the rank is unique, many people also have a very wrong impression that i am a security guard..

well. think u can count me as one. i guard the sky, that is.. haha

the first car i drove after i got my license was a volvo 60... that was the night i got my license.. the next car was a Suzuki Swift. I rented the car for 5 days, just b4 i enter my BMT. (my test was 6 days b4 BMT)

FOr the first day, i had alot of fun. 2nd day, had fun. 3rd day, fun 4th day no fun. 5th day, the car was parked there, but i chosed to take a cab, ignoring the swift altogether. Which was quite dumb cos the car cost me $50 a day.

WHy? cos the swift can only give me 100kph and thats all. IT was also bumpy and stuff and slow.. I SWORE that i will never ever drive one ever again in my life.

But today, i went to look at second hand cars at Automobile Magamart. Looked around, looking for a Honda EG6 VTEC.. i think i got the model wrong (the 3 doors one?). Well i found many of them. all of them were COE cars (more than 10 years) and their monthly payment was quite ok.. about 600++ a month and there were some of them that looked very sporty, and even had sunroofs. haha.. but lying on one side was a Suzuki Swift GTI. It caught my eye at first cos it didn't look like a swift. It looked damn sporty and the inside was lined with red. haha it was cheap. about 500++ a mth. Only then that i learn that this was a powerful version and it could beat an SIR anytime on the first 3 gears.. and so i considered, and here i am, going to go down for a test drive tmrw.. lol.. to think i was thinking i will never buy it just a few hours ago.. haha

haha today is a good day =) i took mc today.. sigh cannot blame la.. tummy upset.. haha so spend half my day with whoelse but sarah.. thats why i'm so happy today. =) we went from school, holland v, home, then to KAP, then to Bukit timah hill to see the 15m height slide, and then to PS and then back home again.. haha =) truly a cross country ride day.. =)

hmmmmm.. "i'm singing in the rain, i'm singing in the rain!"

The toyota corolla...

Although totally soft when it comes to collision with a MPV at 5km/h (mpv only suffered paint work scretch.. corolla suffered a total dent in the bumper), and although the tyres are tiny compared to the car, it is actually a very very versatile and powerful car..

Well.. firstly, it can give me speeds of up to 180km/h easily, and even at that speed, the steering controls are super stable and smooth. Compared to Kahsian's lancer and huson's hyundai and some other people's, they complain that at 120km/h+ they suffer difficulty in controlling, cos the steering wheel keeps vibrating..

And secondly, the car is very very well balanced.. When ever i'm going round a bend at high speed, such that the screeching sounds of the tyres can be heard, i notice that the sound comes from both the front and back. Unlike some cars that actually experience more back drift... and when it is wet, the car will skid on all four wheels. And mind u, skiding on all 4 wheels is actually safer than skidding on 2 wheels.. wel. dunno how 2 explain.. go try it urself first..

lala.. and so i conclude that the corolla, although might crush the moment it experiences an accident, u probably won't even experience one in the first place, cos the car has good control.. even when it is wet.. =)

"well i know its hard to fix the mistake i've done.. i can't do anything about that liaoz. all i can do now is prove that i know i was wrong.. or else i'll regret the mistake i've made.. cos i've just lost the love of my life last week. u need time, i'll give u time.. but all i hope now is that at least u open up to me once again? like u used to not too long ago.."

this was what my friend told me after he send me a photo of me sarah, kahsian, pris, and kwanyi.. it perfectly summarises how i feel right now.. and he isn't a guy that i'll expect this kind of comments frm..

marc says:
so wat u think of the photo?
marc says:
ur ex pretty?
feels fast..... says:
good lor. why?
feels fast..... says:
i think she is wonderful.. why
marc says:
then why break man?
marc says:
u both look great

__________________

marc says:
becos i think u both look good together man...
marc says:
it comes in a pair boy



i hope so..

once again.. its been a good day... but not a perfect day.. wished it was...

i've learnt my first guitar song! haha its a song by vertical horizon.. haha easy song for begineers... only need 6 notes.. and the strumming is god damn easy.. haha =) well i'll move on to harder songs once i perfect the changing of chords..

dropped by bishan with sarah after work. i dunno.. had a real wonderful time once again at a book store. MPH.. she read madonna's book. i thought it was crappy. i don't remember how fairy tales are supposed 2 be like. so i can't say fairy tales are crap.. haha whoops.. but little red riding hood and alice in wonderland and ... alot more.. snow white.. what i remember of them wasn't as crappy as this one here... haha well we spent 10 mins to finish the book. who needs to spend 30 on that book! well.. i understand if parents buy for kids.. haha

well.. i'm happy one the outside. and yet sad inside as well.. i'm weak at night, but strong when i'm with u.

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

had a really good time today with sarah =) watched movie at lido, some dance movie.. was very touching.. i think its called "time for dance" i think.. only at shaw theatres.. u wanna a sad movie? wanna see people with so much love for dance? watch this show. it's good.

after that we went around town and then to the "durain" and man.. there was so much things to do! we ate at Max brenner's and their chocolates were so YUMMY! really! Haha... it was like dinner of chocolate.. everything was chocolate.. except the plain water...

esplanade was actioned packed.. we saw this comedy trick show outside the esplanade, after that we saw someone making baloon sculptures for kids and adults alike, all for free! and that was when i realised how much i've missed. There has been so much going on at esplanade but i never bothered to find them.

Well.. many people were damn shocked that we're not together. Well.. so am i. Its like people who see us these few days in town probably think we patched. But that is only what i wish. Its wierd how come we seem "together yet not together". DOn't ask me why. Cos i'm still trying my best to make up to her. Things are more complicated than i thought. Well. guess i'll continue trying!

Pehon's theory of Human relations.


Do the math.

A girl and a guy meets... 3 elements.
(good time),(love),(on each other's mind)

when
{
(good time)=yes
(love)=yes
(on each others mind)=yes

they get together!
}

else
{
they don't get together!
}



however
{
when (problems)=yes
and
(good time)=no
but
(on each other's mind)=yes
(love)=yes

they breakup!
}


HOWEVER
{
when (problem)=eliminated
and
(good time)=yes
(on each other's mind)=yes
(love)=yes

they get to gether again!!!
}

also
{
when (problem)=eliminated
and
(good time)=yes
(on each other's mind)=yes
(love)=yes

they still don't get together
}



That is in theory.. for those who don't understand, let me xplain in words

2 people meet, they finally have a good time, got love got good time, on each other's mind, they get together and become BF and GF!

But when there is a problem combined with less good time, they break up., although they still have love and still on each other's mind.

SO when the problem is somehow resolved and as a result they have good time again, they logically will get back together right? wrong. somehow it doesnt work this way...


Yes, that was a very robotic way of seeing things. But i really wonder why...

My life is currently in a roundabout. I'll be going around and around and around until i get what i hope to get back.. =)

Had quite alot of fun yesterday.. with many people.. sarah and then the guys at night. Got home at 6 and almost lost my life by crashin the car into the tree, cos i fell asleep for a short moment... haha.. woke up just in time and turned the car and the car bounced off the curb *phew!* well.. good thing i'm still alife..

maybe if i crashed and went to hospital, that might be a catalyst to solving all my problems i have now.. haha crazy way of thinking. but sometimes i just wished i could just read the mind of girls for just a day. then i will know wat is going on in their confusing world of theirs..

I'm happy today =) kinda had a good day. compared to the last fews days that is.

The leave clerk (the clark that is incharge of all the leave matters of servicemen) is always on leave. Idiotic.

"aLL YoUr ComPs. ArE BeLoONg to Us!" -friendster.com

friendster is spreading! spreading like Rage! (28 days later). Its keeping everyone! even Quekie! Stuck on their computer screens! Quekie even played us out today by not wanting to come out.. wonder why....

wanna fail your exams? too much time in your hands? try friendster! you'll totally fail ur exams, and suddenly find yourself locked away in cyberspaceeee.

did anyone know that there was an alternate ending to the 28 Days Later? it only comes out after all the credit and stuff.. haha had to watch it a second time with other ppl to realise there was an alternate ending.. haha last night. the cinema was empty but 5 of us were jus sitting there like idiots, cos one of my frien claimed there was an ending. so. yeah.. ask me wat the ending was if u wanna know. don't wan 2 spoil the show for others.

Btw, i think the show was good..

i love Airforce SChool.. Not only is there nothing to do here, other than reading up some things about Pearce Training, and oso there is a computer lab here that i can just use during working hours.. haha cool right?

Basically during working hours, there trust that u will do what u are supposed to do and no supposed to do.. do i make sense? haha The things u can't do are Sleeping.. Wanking.. Going to canteen at unauthorised times.. Going to the mass at the wrong times.. Whistle at girls.. basically things we know we can't do but still do it.

And the instructors are all pilots, or were pilots. They do things very logically and for a purpose. Not like in infantry. And they're a bunch of very friendly ppl. There was once we had a bday celebration for October babies, and this big shot instructor was one of them. We sang them the original song, and then wanted 2 sing the vulgar song after that, but didn't dare to cos the instructor was there. Than another instructor led us into singing the song "WHY.....!"

"Why are u born so beautiful, oh why are u born at all! You're no FUCKING GOOD TO ANYONE..."

and the song just goes on. no he wasn't angry at all and in fact played along.. haha try having that in commandos. =)

And when u help them do stuff, they won't just dump u the stuff and don't care about u. THey'll buy u snacks like... frm outside.. like when they are on the way.. haha Poor infantry ppl.. with all the lousy instructors.. haha