Went walla walla yesterday.

Called KahSian "Eh meet there at 9 oclock!"

"So early? why? Go later la sure got seats one la!"

So we decided to go there at 9 30.

Got there, no seats. Who was the one who said so early? Anyway, we got seats in the end so i am not complaining.

THe band was called Unexpected i think. the band consisted of 4 people. One drummer. The main singer was a girl, the others were guys. Anyway, i'm here to praise her singing man!

At first the songs she sang didn't really showed off her singing abilities much. She sang the happy remix of "Love me by collin rayne i think" and all other songs did not really make her sound exceptional. But towards the 2nd half of the show, she began to sing damn super well. The last song she sand was the song by Evernesense (ok i dunno how 2 spell) and she sound so damn good. All talent scouts. Sure u have searched throughout singapore and found nothing? maybe u missed this band?

Anyway, i think the singer is so cute. haha she sings and smiles at the same time and at the end of the show, she was so happy it was the end, that she started chantin "Saturday Saturday see u all on saturday! Look forward to saturday saturday saturday... ok bye!" but i guess only me and ryan think alike. haha

A typical Moody and PMS day. Just a thought.... I jus type what i am thinkin. so there isn't really any structure in this.

Somebody's ex's bro said pilots and the trainees are fucked up bastards who are heart breakers.

What the hell.

Used to think that pilots (i'm not sayin pilot trainees) are the happiest buncha people in the world cos of the image that they have. The image that they have many many girlfriends, many many pretty friends and stuff. They were the heart breakers.

But i've come to realise that maybe they're heart breakers cos when they were trainees, they might have experienced what many of my pilot trainee mates are experiencin right now? Girls break their hearts. We are the ones that go to work to see a different sad face day by day.

So many trainees that i know had their gfs endin their relationships. And the trainees are the ones who seem so affected, while the girls seem so damn fine.

Maybe this is the small price to pay as trainees for the future.

An article

Was readin this article on pilots that are here in Singapore for the Asia Aerospace.

Most are fighter pilots and many have seen combat. They have seen war. They are professional soldiers.

Sellin my life in the AirForce, I really believe that if u are here, u better seee real combat at least once, before u retire or cross over to SIA. Or what the hell are u here for. Many guys i know said that they will run away when they are attacked. Than i'm thinkin in my mind "These fuckers are paid so well for nothing".

They say its not worth losin their life. They're here jus for a trip thru NS, or jus here to bridge their future SIA careers.

I'm prayin that when the time does come, they won't run. Cos I'm the kind that will volunteer myself in Iraq or East Timor. And i don't wan to fight alone.

Something is disturbing me.. i'm feeelin damn bloody moody today..

Asian Aerospace

Hello suckers out there who paid 21 for the weekend tickets and 50 for the trade day tickets!

I've the invitation to AA for free!!! We're going this friday!! haha yay!

Its nights out today. =)

we have absolutely no lessons for this whole week. haha so damn free in camp

"oooooooooooooooooo-------Oh!
Why are u born so beautiful,
Oh why are u born at all!
You're no FUCKIN good to anyone,
You're no FUCKIN good at all!"

The traditional pilot trainee at aviation wing birthday song that will be sung right after the proper song.

Happy birthday to me!

Thank u so much Amos, Samuel, Kwanyi, Kahsian, Jesmine, Ryan, Chief, Huson, Daryl, and special mention, Sarah! Thank u all for the song and the singin was so damn loud, i swear it was way louder than the *"tump tump"* in embassy. Anyway, thank u KY for puttin some of the cheese cake into my face. Thank u SARAH! for the cake, the candles (2 big ones) for the idea and everything! thank u so much Sarah. Its probably the first bday of this kind for me. =)

Congrats to Daryl's babe for clinchin 3rd, Congrats to Samuel's Sarah for gettin top 5!

its my first official nights out! hello world!

My weekend is finally endin. For the first time in my life, weekends are actually dreaded. I hate weekends. I hate coming home. The moment i step home, the feelin of loneliness will creep in almost instantly. When i'm in camp, the company i get from everyone else just makes me forget about every shit i'm thinkin about.

For once, i'm really lovin bookin into camp.

the last 3 days were a real torture. Stayin alone at home with the phone nxt to me, its very temptin to make a phone call. But i'm glad i resisted all temptation quite well for the first time in a long time. What made the weekends worse was that there was Vday. The moment i stepped into town, everything comes in pairs. Even the road side buskers at the underpass from taka to luckyplaza. Even the menu at Gusto had the Valentine Special. Luckily i had 2 guys with me who made the day much easier to go by. Thanks Amos and Ryan. Yeah we should go to the lounge more often.

I've lost focus on everything. I was so focused when i was in camp. Now i'm quite lost once again. I'll go back into camp and refocus. Maybe i'll be fine once again once i book out next weekend. Maybe i'll dread the weekends once friday comes by.

We'll see.

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscious seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and I blame you
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain woe
Can show through
\No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one know how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one know how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies


And oh.. i've learnt how to play this song.. Limp Biskit Blue eyes. My first song learnt out totally from readin guitar tabs without anyone helpin.

i am so so so so so sad.. supposed to go to Johore on some SMU Go-Kartin outin today but i don't have the car today so i can't go... sigh.. if only i didn't have dinner with my family cos of my grand ma's bday..

Happy valentine day to everyone! I spent a large part of v day zzzin till 3 pm and then meetin Amos in town. He was shoppin around for stuff for his GF, who was meetin him way later.

And so he got this room at a hotel and was so excited to meet her cos he had this thing to give to her and a whole evenin planned out for her. Never seen him so excited over a girl before. But the wait turned quite bad and soon enough, 3 sad men were spendin vday with each other, travellin around Taka.

we spend the time from 9pm to 1200pm waitin out at the lounge at top of the M. Amos was lookin at his handphone so many times durin the wait. it was fresh seein him waitin for a girl to call him. And he was so damn happy when she finally came LATE at night. =)

i know there isn't any structure in what i'm typin. so sorry about that

it was fun. More importantly, i realised the importance of "guy" friends. They will stand by u no matter what happen to u. How often do u see 2 guy friends fight each other. Even if there was, most of the time they'll be fightin over a girl or something.

i aint really thinkin straight now so i think i betta not type crap for the world to see.

I love stay-in life. Not the life where u have to fall-in here and then, and the instructors give u a few push ups and stuff. But the life where u return to bunks at about 1700hrs after all ur lessons and u are free to do anything, and unofficially, have dinner out.

That was what we did on wednesday and thursday. I had my car, so we went out for dinner. Wednesday night, marina bay. Thursday night, holland V.

And wednesday night i smoked the first cigar and the first cigeratte. The cigar tasted nice. the other tasted like shit. But i'm not addicted.

Thursday at holland V, ate katong laksa. Other than feelin fat the nxt morning, the food was damn good. =) and we ran into a bunch of Ryan's frien. All girls. How popular.. haha but eh! i saw Amos's Sharon! hello out there if u see this haha small world. AC + RJ connection. Crap. Oh but at the lakso place, i saw this damn damn damn hot girl! short hair, slim, and her face.. wow.. seriously. we were challengin each other to go talk to her until we saw her butch gf.. damn.. LES.. seriously a waste.. and we saw a holland v actress. She was no way close to that short hair girl in terms of prettiness.

Stayin in althoughs brings u away from ur families, It brings u closer to ur friends. At the same time, it brings u away from all ur sorrows. I've been feelin so much betta in camp, i don't wan to go home. I hate comin home. Never would i imagine myself being the kind of want-to-stay-in-guy. I find it quite sad, but what to do. I enjoy it.

We had been havin workshops the last few days.. Something about Learnin Organisation and mental models. If u understand good. if not nvm. my lessons are gonna start on monday. I'm gonna work hard and get good grades for once. Since i've nothing to worry about now. I'm finally happy.

I know some older pilots and instructors from YFC and RSAF read my blog. Keep everything to urself. What i'm sayin here is not true to u all.

there are sometimes where u get the temptation to do things, so strong that u wanna do it, but u can't do it cos circumstances are different now.

I wanted to visit somebody's workplace but i held myself back.

i'm so proud of myself. Took only 2hr 8min from the KL checkpoint to the 2nd link checkpoint.

Dreams

They say u dream wierd things after close encounters.

I dreamt of things i really hated last night. Dreamt of what i fear most about someone.

Shockin Confessions

Drivin away from the mansion
We drove off in this order. Amos's Civic, Me Corolla, Ky Mercedes and KS lancer.

We were still in the private housin estate.

The Mercedes had KY and samuel. Amos's car had Sharon and him. I had Ryan and me. Ks has himself.

I took over the Civic. KY and Samuel counted 3 heads in Amos's car. They thought Ryan was on the Civic. They kept callin Amos. By then, my car was out of sight. Ryan was still next to me.


Peeing
I said excuse me b4 peein.

Ryan said he saw a white figure go past me on my left as i was peein.

Adventures of the Ghost Hunters - Sime Road

Sime road leads to a grave yard. The road in the grave yard was 1 car wide. We took a slow drive into the "real" grave yard. 3 cars made it feel all safe. Indeed, the road went a loop and we went out thru the same entrance.

There was a tiny road jus before the real graveyard. We decided to explore that. KS went in first. He stopped. He was talkin to Amos who was in the car behind me. I stopped the car between them. We were still near the "main" road. It seemed safe. I went out and pee. Something happened here.

We went on into the deep darkness. This road was more scary. The road wasn't as clear as the previous one. Tree branches stickin out, broken furnitures were everywhere.

Down the road, we saw something very freaky. There was a hut. There were about 10 motorbikes parked outside it. It looked so much like a cross breed between a haunted house and a illegal immigrant house. We took a slow drive past it and we came to a open space. We decided to turn around.

Adventures of the Ghost Hunters - Hillview

Last night at 2200hr, a bunch of us (KY, KS, Samuel, Amos, Ryan n Amos frien Sharon) decided to be a little adventurous. We decided to visit an empty mansion on top of Hillview.

We arrived at 2300hr. There was a very very steep slope up to a hill where the mansion was supposed to be. We parked at the foot of the hill. The slope was about 50m long and it was the steepest slope i've ever seen in Singapore. At the gate, lookin into it, all u can see was darkness. The mansion was apparently so deep in that u can't see it from where we were.

I regretted agreein to go there. It looked so movie like. Those movie where a bunch of curious people checks out a haunted mansion. Curiosity kills the cat.

There was a little openin at the side of the house and we went into the drive way thru that openin. Even then, from there in the darkess, we could not see what was at the end of the driveway.

We took a slow walk up the drive way. What felt like 100 m up that still steep drive way, we went round a 180degree bend in the drive way, that continues up the hill. The bend overlooks the night view of hillview. There was confort in the tense atmosphere we found ourselves in.

It was uphill another 100m before we found the mansion. Luckily for me, there was not much walls around. Apparantly the walls were removed. There was a drive in where the shelter has collapsed. Many of the foils that lined the roof had fallen and were hangin like dead bodies.

Anyone wants to go down? I asked. Well.. Perhaps only Sharon was the only one who was so tempted to turn around with me. We were to go into the house and up the famous spiral stairs.

There was a spiral stairs after a 20m walk in thing. On the right was wat seemed to be a livin room where it overlooks hillview. There were many other empty rooms that seem insignificant. We went up to the 2nd level. The large spiral stairs led us to the 2nd level, where there was a even more clastrophobic metal spiral stairway that leads on to who knows where. Some previous hunters wrote words like "Stairway to hell". I saw it but i didn't want to think much about it. There were about 3 rooms. One of the rooms had a balcony. It overlooked hillview again. I tell, Hillview was a good view.

And so we wend up the tiny stairs. It didn't look safe and structually stable. So we went up in 2s. The vibrations on the stairs produced spooky sounds. At the top, there was nothing but another balcony with the same view. Out there there was an outdoor stairs, spiral again to a tiny look out point, about 2x2m. Up there, the view was nothing we wound have expected. With bukit timah hill lights behind us, we looked down at the night sky.

Up there, we opened our drinks and started listenin to the story of the house.

A rich man built the house. Her wife was pragnent. One day, the wife fell down one of the stairs (not surprisin) and had a miscarriage. From that day on, many wierd events occured and the couple moved out. The only reason the house is not sold yet is cos the owner still owns the house. It is said the baby girl that died in the miscarriage still haunts the house. Most people has seen it before.

Well. We still have to get out of the house. But we did it uneventfully. Thankfully.

Back at the entrance, we noticed a basement thingy. It looked like a bomb shelter, a bunker where british soldiers fired at enemies. It looked so totally freaky. There were stairs that seem to lead to something deep down beneath the buildin. Stupid KY led us into it.

It was a big open space in the bunker. There was a toilet at the bottom of the bunker, and the bunker actually looked like a theatre. The original owner must be some rich bastard with alot of taste for romance and balconies.

We went up the stairs to get out of the place. That was when 3 people xperienced something.

Outside, the 3 made their confessions. Ryan felt chills and his hair was standin on ends at the point where we went up on the stairs.

KY saw a white figure at the point where we went up on the stairs.

Samuel saw a shadow at the point where we went up on the stairs.

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day i'm loving you more than this
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

I'll sing it alone. Thanks.

Road trip!

A few of us decided that we should drive up to malaysia for jus one day for sea food. Well i planned it to move off at 3pm. KY and guys had wakeboardin till 3.. so i set the time at 4pm.. and so i picked ky up at sembawang and the rest went off to get their stuff from home. Ky house was supposed to become the meetin point.

So we waited and waited at KY's house till fuckin 1730.. lol.. so damn late already.. so we made our way to 2nd link and went thru.

We were to to to Kecup.. the southern most tip of malaysia. On the map, its only about 20 km away from the cause way. but in truth, the 2nd link and the place we were going was separated by a river, that runs about 40 km... so yes.. 40 km up to the top and back down to so damn near singapore.

We went into the highway.. it looked like we joined a highway.. so all the cars on the outer 2 lanes were so slow, we decided to go onto the inner lanes.. (4 lanes all together) than suddenly as we were goin round a bend, 2 protons suddenly appeared headin towards us.. man. Ryan said i brought us into near death, huson said my reflexes saved the car. I was fast enough to go back to our lane..

As we went further down, some of us had doubts cos the road seemed too far away and the roads were not litted. We decided to go to Pontian and then decide wat to do next. We were in this road that ran for wat felt like 30km unlitted and had many pot holes.. But well after we turned out of that road it was betta.

Well so at pontian we had a discussion by the road. Amos said we should go. KS said we sbould go back. But the rest wanted to go. So we went on the nxt 30km. Than as i was drivin, i suddenly realised we have another problem. How do we find the restaurant if everyone's asleep. It was alreaddy 2030. But hack it.

The road brought us to a dead end. Great.. But look around us. ALL the restaurants were around us at the end. A police station greeted us at the end of the road by the way. haha can u believe how relieved i was? i couldn't possibly bring this bunch of guys to a dead end after drivin so far right.

We had dinner, and it cost us 200 ringgit for 7 people. about 15 singapore per person.

And so the rest of the journey involved followin the 2nd link signs all over the place. We stopped at the petrol kiosk and topped up full tank. A bunch of kids did it for us. I paid them the exact ammount and they were like loookin at me, hintin for tips i guess.. so i gave them 10 ringgit. they all stared at me. Was it too much? or too little. Ryan said it was alot. ok fine..

We ran into one of those burger stands and we stiopped by to buy some famous malaysia burgers..

And well.. it was uneventful for the rest of the jouirney. Jus that it was so damn scary along the unlitted road. Turn off the head lights and i swear u can't see what is infront of u.

And over at singapore side,we did a mid-drivin transfer of ryan's passport. at 100km/h.. well... i'm jus lazy to say everything.. so i shall jus say these.. kk gd night