ITs my second last book out b4 my very very very long field, at a field.. haha.. duh.. anyway, i didn't have time to update this blog until today.. haha not that i've been spending time with alot of people, but haha been spending so much time with sarah dear.. haha.. poor girl... got eye infection... didn't know about until friday afternoon when we were allowed to call out to our love ones... seee.... life in my camp.. really dunno wat the hell is going on out in the real world.. haha..
my platoon was lucky.. the others were running around doing things in camp but we were being rewarded cos we performed very well for our eight km march.. haha.. anyway, this week was supposed to be a very tiring week for everyone.. cos we had all the physicals one after another.. but i fell sick.. fever... and was in the sick bay for one day and stayed in my bunk for one day.. haha.. lucky me? no way... i had to stayback on saturday afternoon to make up for wat i missed out on... haha..
and that felt like shit.. why?? cos it was my bday on saturday.. anyway, after my extra trainings, i rushed home with my daddy's van and changed and went on over to sarah's house.. haha.. thank you so much dear for all the gifts!! Love you so much! haha.. was so happy that i was gonna see her that i was speeding away at 130km/h along the high way and along lornie rd.. haha.. i've been missing her so much in the sick bay and the days after that.. and we needed each other so much..i was on drips and she was in pain.. makes me wish i could spend my week with her nxt to her...
gtg back up now liaoz.. haha.. oh ya sze min, glad you are reading my blog, whether due to boredom or anything else... haha been talking to your tim young once in a while when we have the chance.. he is doing fine... not gaying arouind.. don't worry.. =)
and to sarah, i'm gonna miss ya....
Sunday, February 23, 2003
Sunday, February 16, 2003
haha i wanted 2 start this blog entry with "it feels good to be back!" but realised i used it the last entry.. hahaha.. not that i'm not creative enough, but there is really no other phrase to describe how i feel now.. haha.. The last week, yeah, was beginning to be physically tiring.. everyday we carry our SBO around, and inside we added four sand cans... although it doesnt really weigh more than 20 kg, but imagine carrying them around for the whole freaking day and going up and down the, we all felt so good the moment we take it off.. haha so light! really, you all should try it out.. haha.. but the worse thing is that there really isn't time for my muscles to recover.. cos the nxt day, the same thing happens again. by saturday morning, i was so exhausted i could hardly walk.. forced myself to walk...
what i really miss in camp, other than sarah, is music... sometimes at night you can hear music blasting frm some of the instructors rooms, ya... so jealous of them..
anyway, i had a belated vday with sarah yesterday, and i had to ask my dad so many times for him to lend me his van.. haha.. yeah van.. but the van is quite cool.. kenneth says so.. but i'm waiting for is the toyota corolla.. coming nxt week probably.. haha =).. anyway, i really really missed sarah alot in camp, and it felt good to be spending so much time (and money) with her yesterday.. haha.. but good things got to end... tonight i've got to go back.. i'm gonna have the depression syndromne again like always when i go in.. its jus the freedom that i will miss out of camp..
And i jus found out our field camp is 21 days!!! beat that tekong guys.. in fact, field camp is ould 11 days, but the rest of the ten days we'll be staying at the fields so we can use the ranges and stuff at tekong.. haha.. wonder would the field camp would be so long still if Hendon camp had the facilities.. sigh.. haha.. but the good thing is that right after the field camp, my BMT and commando LIFE ENDS!!!!
what i really miss in camp, other than sarah, is music... sometimes at night you can hear music blasting frm some of the instructors rooms, ya... so jealous of them..
anyway, i had a belated vday with sarah yesterday, and i had to ask my dad so many times for him to lend me his van.. haha.. yeah van.. but the van is quite cool.. kenneth says so.. but i'm waiting for is the toyota corolla.. coming nxt week probably.. haha =).. anyway, i really really missed sarah alot in camp, and it felt good to be spending so much time (and money) with her yesterday.. haha.. but good things got to end... tonight i've got to go back.. i'm gonna have the depression syndromne again like always when i go in.. its jus the freedom that i will miss out of camp..
And i jus found out our field camp is 21 days!!! beat that tekong guys.. in fact, field camp is ould 11 days, but the rest of the ten days we'll be staying at the fields so we can use the ranges and stuff at tekong.. haha.. wonder would the field camp would be so long still if Hendon camp had the facilities.. sigh.. haha.. but the good thing is that right after the field camp, my BMT and commando LIFE ENDS!!!!
Saturday, February 08, 2003
It feels good to be back! haha.. NS for the last week has been very very physically tiring.. Finally the activities are beginning to develop my physical well being.. before that it was jus mental.. haha.. But guess what? i'm feeling so much betta this weekend cos finally my platoonmates are really talking and its pretty fun to talk to all of them. haha many nice and cool personality.. haha...
I'm finally beginning to get used to the regimental life in camp, and yeah.. now i'm tired.. but i have to go out.. haha.. i dunno.. i don't mind going out, but i oso dun mind staying home and zzz like a pig.. haha.. hopefully i can rest well tonight and yeah.. most probably going dinner at Changi Village tmrw night.. haha.. so yeah see ya guys soon man!
I'm finally beginning to get used to the regimental life in camp, and yeah.. now i'm tired.. but i have to go out.. haha.. i dunno.. i don't mind going out, but i oso dun mind staying home and zzz like a pig.. haha.. hopefully i can rest well tonight and yeah.. most probably going dinner at Changi Village tmrw night.. haha.. so yeah see ya guys soon man!
Sunday, February 02, 2003
Its a brand new day, and i slept till such a freaking late time.. or at least i tried. I dunno why.. I'm so tired and yet i can't zzz to twelve.. I woke up at 1130 and here am i again, putting a new entry into the blog. hahah.. actually this blog thing is quite fun!
My dad is a real nice guy. ahah. asked him to lend me his van so i can go beach road buy the entire place worth of things and he allowed! never expected him to say yes anyway.. haha.. I'm jus trying to make time fly by.. Gonna go down to his place to collect his van soon. haha.. And the toyota corolla my dad bought for me? Yay! its coming this month!!! haha dunno which day though.. lousy car dealer.. hopefully by nxt week end so when i book out i can go to daxu's party.. in the car.. haha
Anywayz, i'm jus seeing time fly by me min by min, and with each min going by, i'm going to camp a min sooner.. I don't want to go back.. i really don't. I wonder if i'm at tekong, would i feel as lousy as now? I dun think i will be feeling so sucky.. cos ya.. one privilege that is important to me, that is unavaliable to us, but avaliable to them is the use of a HP.. i wan to use my hp.. so i can call somebody at least once a day.. argh.. i should have appealed out of commandos.. I have many reasons that i can use to appeal out of it. But some of the reasons if i tell, i would be out of Pilot oso.. so.. yeah.. gonna suck the crap up in Hendon and hopefully, the 2 months plus would fly by me as fast as possible......
My dad is a real nice guy. ahah. asked him to lend me his van so i can go beach road buy the entire place worth of things and he allowed! never expected him to say yes anyway.. haha.. I'm jus trying to make time fly by.. Gonna go down to his place to collect his van soon. haha.. And the toyota corolla my dad bought for me? Yay! its coming this month!!! haha dunno which day though.. lousy car dealer.. hopefully by nxt week end so when i book out i can go to daxu's party.. in the car.. haha
Anywayz, i'm jus seeing time fly by me min by min, and with each min going by, i'm going to camp a min sooner.. I don't want to go back.. i really don't. I wonder if i'm at tekong, would i feel as lousy as now? I dun think i will be feeling so sucky.. cos ya.. one privilege that is important to me, that is unavaliable to us, but avaliable to them is the use of a HP.. i wan to use my hp.. so i can call somebody at least once a day.. argh.. i should have appealed out of commandos.. I have many reasons that i can use to appeal out of it. But some of the reasons if i tell, i would be out of Pilot oso.. so.. yeah.. gonna suck the crap up in Hendon and hopefully, the 2 months plus would fly by me as fast as possible......
Ok i gonna type out the Sarah part of my essay.. haha.. shit i still feel shitty.. perhaps more shitty than b4 about typing all that again.
I don't like life in Hendon Camp. We don't have many privileges that people at Tekong has. And to make things worse, we can't use our phones, even at night. Only on certain nights are we allowed to use the phone for 5 mins. After that, we got to hang up, if not we kanna fucked. But to make things worse, seriously, i do miss talking to Sarah alot. There are nights were i feel so restless about everything, and after talkning to Sarah, i suddenly feel so awake. It feels like a magic pill where jus popping it would relieve all my worries and pain. Worries? yeah.. i really do worry about losing her while i'm in NS. Really really do. Cos I love her so so much. I really really care for her alot. Sometimes i do wished i didn't like her that much. Probably i would zzz easier at night at camp. At night, i have really nothing on my mind but her. During lectures, I've already written pages and pages of letters meant for her, but i probably don't intend to give it to her. I dunno why oso. Haha.. Its like really. Sometimes in lectures i and some of my platoon mates will talk about our gfs.. and sometimes i really really jus wished all this monkey crap training could jus fly by fast fast so i can see sarah during the week ends. But instead, time crawls like some big fat snail with its big fat shell.
But i'll think, probably this physically separation between us could be good for us in a long run. We've been spending so much time together, and sometimes ya.. probably its too much for her. I do fear losing her, but hey, look on the bright side of life. Probably this distance could do us some good. She finally has some freedom to do anything she wants. Finally. Hmmm and again, i do wished i didn't like her that much.. haha.. but wat the hack.. God made me like her so so much.. I really really pray to god asking her to give me peace of mind to overcome the NS challenges. But its not working. Still think of her excessively. But hopefully, this distance is good, instead of the opposite.
Although i seem so reliant on her, but i'm mentally prepared for anything that might happen to us both. It might not be a pleasant experience, but i'll survive thru it, especially since i'm busy with NS, and frm previous experiences, i've coped well with it. But again, i dun wan it to happen..
I don't like life in Hendon Camp. We don't have many privileges that people at Tekong has. And to make things worse, we can't use our phones, even at night. Only on certain nights are we allowed to use the phone for 5 mins. After that, we got to hang up, if not we kanna fucked. But to make things worse, seriously, i do miss talking to Sarah alot. There are nights were i feel so restless about everything, and after talkning to Sarah, i suddenly feel so awake. It feels like a magic pill where jus popping it would relieve all my worries and pain. Worries? yeah.. i really do worry about losing her while i'm in NS. Really really do. Cos I love her so so much. I really really care for her alot. Sometimes i do wished i didn't like her that much. Probably i would zzz easier at night at camp. At night, i have really nothing on my mind but her. During lectures, I've already written pages and pages of letters meant for her, but i probably don't intend to give it to her. I dunno why oso. Haha.. Its like really. Sometimes in lectures i and some of my platoon mates will talk about our gfs.. and sometimes i really really jus wished all this monkey crap training could jus fly by fast fast so i can see sarah during the week ends. But instead, time crawls like some big fat snail with its big fat shell.
But i'll think, probably this physically separation between us could be good for us in a long run. We've been spending so much time together, and sometimes ya.. probably its too much for her. I do fear losing her, but hey, look on the bright side of life. Probably this distance could do us some good. She finally has some freedom to do anything she wants. Finally. Hmmm and again, i do wished i didn't like her that much.. haha.. but wat the hack.. God made me like her so so much.. I really really pray to god asking her to give me peace of mind to overcome the NS challenges. But its not working. Still think of her excessively. But hopefully, this distance is good, instead of the opposite.
Although i seem so reliant on her, but i'm mentally prepared for anything that might happen to us both. It might not be a pleasant experience, but i'll survive thru it, especially since i'm busy with NS, and frm previous experiences, i've coped well with it. But again, i dun wan it to happen..